Happy New Year, everyone! With the new year almost upon us, it's easy to fall into the groove of making all those New Year's resolutions that sometimes stick, and well, sometimes fall away into the grind of everyday life. Don't get me wrong; it's great to make resolutions and goals for our lives, but we have to be realistic and yet at the same time, optimistic about them. It's important to make sure that they have a lasting, eternal effect, whatever they may be.
I always get a little excited about this time of year because it's a fresh start, a chance to officially wipe the slate clean of the last year and start anew with a renewed sense of purpose and fresh faith. I've been thinking a lot about goals I could set and things that I could write about here, but it can get overwhelming if I try to make a huge list of things I want to do in 2009. So, I'm just going to wipe my slate clean. I'm going to start out by forgiving myself for my shortcomings and all the things I could have handled differently in 2008. After all, it's a new year, a new day! Sometimes it's easy to ask God for forgiveness, but at the same time we have to learn to forgive ourselves and move on. He wants us to have a joyful life, and if we are still stuck in that rut of unforgiveness towards ourselves, it's not going to be so joyful; it's going to be filled with guilt. Once God forgives us, He forgets and wipes our hearts clean.
Another thing I am definitely going to do is to read through the Bible in one year. Whether I read it from my Bible or listen to it online or even read online, I'm going to do this. Think of the spiritual growth that can come through this. If you would like to take part, you can check out the One Year Bible Blog. In 15 minutes a day, I can read through both the Old and New Testaments. I am very excited about this because so often I try to follow a plan, and I get discouraged or sidetracked. This will help me to stay more accountable.
Another thing I'm working on is being there more for my children and husband. I know, this is not supposed to be a resolutions list, but this is definitely something that is important and has eternal effects. I want to give them more of my time, for it is the single, most important thing I could ever give them. To give Jacob and Jaden my undivided attention and talk to them and give them the sense that they can feel safe and secure in our home is of major importance to me. Also, to do the same for Dan, giving him more of my time and really listening to him with my eyes and ears is something I want to do more of because so often it's easy to just keep on working, listening in part, but not fully. I know you mothers all know what I'm talking about here. My sister said something a long time ago that I have constantly remembered but that is slowly coming to mean more to me....."You have to put your husband before your children." And it's so true; we are a team. Without that team effort, I may as well be a single parent. This is something I have to wrap my heart and mind around and work on because it's so easy to sometimes ignore the needs of my husband in lieu of the needs of my children.
Last of all, not only do I want to be there spiritually and emotionally for my family, but physically as well. I really want to shape up physically. I want to first of all, make sure my spiritual body is beautiful but also work on the physical. It starts by eating more healthy foods and actually exercising. I am definitely not motivated to exercise, but it's something I want to do because not only is this good for myself, but it's good for my family. It gives me the opportunity to be at my best not only for myself but for them. Also, I want to fill my brain with all kinds of good things by reading, writing (I hope to start a book), and just listening.
So, there's all the things that have been going in and out of my head concerning this post. I know it's kinda a novel, but I hope it helps you to see my heart and can encourage someone out there who may be struggling. What are your thoughts in this New Year? What do you want to accomplish this year? I'd love an accountability partner/s. I'll leave you with this video, which was on the One year Bible Blog and is just so cute.
Happy New Year, everyone! May you start this year with a clean slate and fresh new beginnings!
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Happy New Year, everyone! With the new year almost upon us, it's easy to fall into the groove of making all those New Year's resolutions that sometimes stick, and well, sometimes fall away into the grind of everyday life. Don't get me wrong; it's great to make resolutions and goals for our lives, but we have to be realistic and yet at the same time, optimistic about them. It's important to make sure that they have a lasting, eternal effect, whatever they may be.
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Last night I was supposed to get together with my best friend from high school; she was in town visiting her family for Christmas. We weren't able to, though, because Jaden was sick, and she was also sick. It still didn't stop me from thinking of some really funny memories that we, no doubt, would have rehashed if we had gotten together. She had come up at Thanksgiving too, and we had laughed and laughed over some of the things we did "way back when." Sarah and I both apprenticed with a vet our senior year, and we would go every Wednesday to the doc's office. Usually, we weren't at the office; we were out running around to different farms to work. This one particular time, we were again chasing the vet down this country gravel road, trying to keep up with her; we could never keep up with her and were always getting lost way out in the boonies. We were in my little Chevy Luv pickup, and all of a sudden, we heard this pop, and Sarah looked back, and the bed had fallen off of my pickup! Yep, you read that right; it fell plumb off. My brother ended up having to help us get it welded back on, but I had forgotten all about this, and I don't think I've laughed so hard in a long time, just picturing that happening all over again. It was hilarious, almost like one of those old Disney comedies you would see.
Monday, December 29, 2008
Outside My Window... it is dark and cold.
I am thinking... that Mondays should really be outlawed.
I am thankful for... a warm house and a blanket.
From the learning rooms... we are taking the week off school, but I'm hoping to go to the library this week to get Jacob some audiobooks and other books to read.
From the kitchen... will be the aroma of butterscotch chocolate chip cookies this afternoon.
I am wearing... jammies right now.
I am creating... Dan made me a framed mirror for Christmas, but it has room all around it to scrapbook pictures or whatever my heart desires, so I'm wanting to work on that, plus curtains for our bedroom and new throw pillow covers.
I am going... to hopefully see my best friend from high school tonight while she's here visiting family (oh the memories we will rehash:)). Jacob also has Tae Kwon Do this week, and I hope to get to Walmart this week to get a little fabric before it's all gone.
I am reading... The Well-Trained Mind by Susan Wise Bauer and Jessie Wise; it is so interesting and informative; also, still reading The Lucky One by Nicholas Sparks and The Other Side of Love by Gary Chapman.
I am hoping... to be able to relax a little bit this week, since we don't have school.
I am hearing... quiet peace with everyone sleeping right now.
Around the house... today is home blessing day.
One of my favorite things... is when Dan has the day off and we get to spend it together.
A Few Plans For The Rest Of The Week: Hopefully, I can get a lot done this week as well as relax a little bit. Dan will have Thursday off, so that will be nice.
Here is a picture thought I am sharing... (this was my maternal grandparents after they first got married)The Simple Woman
Friday, December 26, 2008
Yep, my boy loves the Jonas Brothers....but from what I've seen and read and heard about these boys, they seem to be pretty well grounded, and I think he could have a lot worse role models.
My sweet hubby will be able to go skiing again now for the first time in a Veeerrrrryyyy long time....
Not too thrilled about posting this pic of me, but hey, gotta keep it real....:)
Want to see more Christmas photos?
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
As we celebrate today and tomorrow with our families, may we not forget the real meaning behind our celebration; may we share with our children and families the real Reason for this wonderful season; and may we never forget all that He did for us. Merry Christmas! I hope your Christmas is filled with ever so much joy and peace!
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
It seems as though everyone has been busy baking, including me. I didn't want to keep these treats to myself though, so I thought I'd share a few. Enjoy!:)
Monday, December 22, 2008
Outside My Window...it is still dark and only 4 degrees!
I am thinking...I did not want to get out of bed this morning to start this Monday.
I am thankful for...a warm house for my family.
From the learning rooms...we only have 2 days of school this week....yea!!!!
From the kitchen...will be the aroma of warm sugar cookies this afternoon and pork fried rice with egg rolls for supper tonight.
I am wearing...my bathrobe and jammies.:)
I am creating...more scrapbooked pictures of my grandma and grandpa when they were younger, and hopefully I can start work on new throw pillow covers this week.
I am going...to take Jacob to Tae Kwon Do tonight and hopefully pick up just a couple things at the store.
I am hoping...that it snows for Christmas, bunches and bunches.:)
I am hearing...the furnace and just the quiet this morning.
Around the house...today is home blessing day.
One of my favorite things...is seeing the lights flickering on the Christmas tree, especially when it's dark outside because they shine even more.
A Few Plans For The Rest Of The Week: We mainly have school, and then Wednesday we'll just enjoy Christmas Eve together, and Thursday evening, we'll hopefully go to my aunt's house. Then, it's a nice four day weekend, which it will be so nice to have Dan home for. We love these long weekends together.
Here is a picture thought I am sharing...("Really Mom, we're not doing anything...":))
Yesterday was our Christmas play at church, and Jacob played a little shepherd boy in it.
Saturday, December 20, 2008
If this doesn't make us want to get up and hug our kids and love on them, then I don't know what will. It had me bawling early this morning.....you'll need the tissues. Sometimes I think in the busyness of life, we forget how much God truly loves us to have sacrificed His own Son; how that must have hurt to see His Son suffering....but He loves us that much....what a thought.
Friday, December 19, 2008
It's so amazing and wonderful that one story can bring people all over the world together every year at this time.
The story of how the well-loved hymn Silent Night brought even enemies together one Christmas long ago has always fascinated me. It was 1914, and the world was in an uproar, in the midst of World War I. A truce had been made on Christmas Eve. German troops had gotten in the Christmas spirit and had started to sing Stille Nacht or Silent Night. The enemy troops on the other side heard them and started singing the song in English. Can you imagine being a soldier in those trenches that cold, starry night and hearing your enemy sing the very song you had just sung, only in his own language? Soon, both sides had come together to celebrate. They even had opportunity to mourn the dead and give some of them the burial that they deserved, instead of being left on the bloody battleground, seemingly forgotten amidst the roar of the battle. The Christmas Truce had brought together men who had been just a few hours before, fighting each other to the death. It was a night of peace, brought on by truly the greatest story ever told. We can deny that Christmas is about Christ, but never forget that without Christ in Christmas, we are left with nothing but meaningless letters. He is the reason we can celebrate today and the reason there was peace on that lone night in the history of World War I.
Silent night, holy night,
Silent night, holy night,
Silent night, holy night
Thursday, December 18, 2008
Last night, I decided to go get our grocery shopping done for the next two weeks. I headed out to go to Walmart first. When I went back to the fabric section to get material for Jacob's shepherd costume, I noticed they had signs up all over the place saying "Fabric liquidation 25% off." So, I went up to the associate, as were other women (we were all upset), and I confirmed that they are indeed getting rid of our fabric section here. I was so upset to say the least. I asked her where we were supposed to go now to get fabric. She shrugged and said she didn't know. First of all, we are in a very rural community about an hour or more away from any other stores besides the normal small-town stores. There is no other place around here to get fabric, unless you want to drive to Cabool, and their prices are out the wazoo. Even if we go to Springfield, there's Joann Fabrics, and they are just so expensive too. Second of all, this is a sewing community; many women quilt and sew for a hobby, not to mention making their clothes and household things; there are also many Mennonite women here who buy fabric. Walmart is basically "cutting off our right arm." This is just an example of what it is like: it is like taking the automotive section out of the store and saying, "Sorry, you can't fix your car anymore because we had to get rid of everything you needed." I mean, what are they thinking? This is what truly makes me livid too, and I hope it does enough to get people talking. The associate told me last night that the patterns probably aren't going to go on sale, but what they don't sell of them, they will shred. That is so shameful and so wasteful! I am truly appalled! This whole thing has me in a quandary, but my mom and I talked last night, and I've decided to try to take some sort of action. I'm going to look into starting some sort of petition in our community, just to let them know how much they are going to be hurting those of us who regularly use that section of the store. We will see what happens. Anyway, I instantly knew last night what I was going to blog about; and I wasn't the only woman back there upset; there were others too, and the poor store associate (who had nothing to do with the decision, and I felt very sorry for her), said she had been dealing with the aftermath ever since they put up the signs. Not a good decision, Walmart!
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
Homeschooling Jacob this year has been a big adjustment for our house, but it has been such a blessing too. I'm so thankful for the opportunity to be able to homeschool him. He is in first grade this year, which you might think is not hard at all to teach, but there are many days when I find myself praying for patience, and if that isn't bad enough, he has even prayed that Mommy would have lots of patience and love.:) There is one thing I constantly find myself doing, though. I find myself underestimating his abilities. I guess since he is in first grade, my mind automatically thinks that certain things might be too hard for him. Lately, though, I've really had to make sure he is focusing on me when I tell him something, or he just won't hear me or "get it," which probably is normal. We will be going through a lesson, and I will start to teach something, and I will automatically think, "This is going to be too hard for him; he is not going to be able to grasp this concept." Yet he surprises me again and again. In Language, we are going through the Level 1 book of Shurley English, and he is just flying through it. There are things in there that I thought would just be way over his head, but he is just taking it all in and "getting it." It's amazing to watch him, my first grader, label a sentence now with 4 different parts of speech. I attribute quite a bit of it to the way the Shurley English presents the material, but that's another post. He also surprises me constantly in other things that we are studying. So, if you homeschool or even if you don't, never underestimate what they can do or think or learn. I've been fortunate in that, for the most part, I haven't let it stop me from teaching him the things I thought would be too hard, and it has been a blessing to see him excel in those things. If we underestimate our children's abilities, we may miss out on something extraordinary, and so will they. I remember a movie we watched called, "For One More Day," where in a scene the mother stood up to the librarian for telling her son that a book was too hard for him to read. That has stuck with me, and we should stand up for our kids' right to learn anything and everything they can. Homeschooling gives us that ability, so I hope this can be an encouragement to any homeschooling families out there to keep teaching and never underestimate the vast capabilities of your child's brain. Have a wonderful day!
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Christmas is just such a memorable and wonderful time. Every morning I love to turn the lights on the Christmas tree on, and it just sparkles; I'm "like a kid in a candy shop" when it comes to Christmas. I've been reading other blogs, and over at Tip Junkie, they are having a Christmas tree contest. So, I thought it might be fun in the spirit of things. You can submit yours too; just head on over to the link above and join in the fun. Our Christmas tree usually has 3-4 sets of lights, both multicolored and white (we like lights). Most of our ornaments are ornaments we acquired from my grandmother or homemade ornaments, which all make it very special. The memories just come flooding back every year when we decorate the tree, and it's so fun to remember. I remember, as a child, pulling out old ornaments that we had made and putting them on the tree and the wonderful memories my mom and I made while decorating. I hope that our ornaments can bring that same joy to our chidren and make many wonderful memories for them as well. On top of the tree, we have a star; I love the angel that people sometimes put on top, but the star just reminds me of that long ago night when our Saviour was born in a manger. It's all lit up and sort of a beacon, a reminder of the light of Jesus. As you decorate your tree this year, even though it may not be as easy as Charlie Brown and his friends make it look, make it special, and make memories. Enjoy!
Monday, December 15, 2008
Outside My Window...it is cold and icy out there and still dark.
I am thinking...I feel so bad for the Amish family who are out searching for their little girl right now in this bitter cold; she fell out of a buggy yesterday and somehow got lost.
I am thankful for...my warm home and the safety of my own children.
From the learning rooms...we are working on more cursive writing this week and also about Abraham Lincoln.
From the kitchen...will be the aromas of Minestrone Casserole later on and hopefully some Christmas baking.
I am wearing...pajamas and bathrobe right now. (It's 5:54 right now, so it's enough that I'm up and functioning)
I am creating...a fabric cover for the top of my sewing machine cabinet, which is very old; the veneer on top is peeling away.
I am going...nowhere today, except maybe to take Jacob to Tae Kwon Do later on.
I am reading...The Other Side of Love by Gary Chapman and The Lucky One by Nicholas Sparks.
I am hoping...the ice doesn't get so bad as to knock out power and that our neighbor, Sylvia, stays warm enough.
I am hearing...the news and weather in the midst of a quiet house.
Around the house...will be home blessing hour today and just cleanup from the weekend.
One of my favorite things...is reading other people's blogs and really feeling a connection to that person through the things they write.
A Few Plans For The Rest Of The Week: Hopefully, we can be home quite a bit this week; I have a new writing assignment to start, and we'll get out to the library and grocery store, plus homeschool meeting this week, and we have Christmas with my family on Saturday; my sister is coming, so we're getting ready for that. Jacob is going to be a shepherd in the Christmas play next weekend too.
Here is a picture thought I am sharing...
Well, it's Monday again, that blessed first day of the week after a busy weekend. This morning, there are so many things going on here in the Midwest. Up north, there are blizzards, and here we have ice coming down and very bitter cold. It's kind of a hard morning to get motivated, but we can do it. In the spirit of Monday, I found some of my favorite comic strips and just had to share with you; hopefully, you can get a good laugh out of these and know that you are not alone in the journey we call motherhood. I have a feeling whoever writes this comic strip really does sort of "get us.":) So, before you go off to start your Monday chores, take five and get this day started off right with a cheerful heart. Have a wonderful Monday!
Saturday, December 13, 2008
Everyone is desperately trying to get ready for Christmas, as evidenced by the massive numbers of people in Springfield today, and especially in the most dreaded place at this time of year....the mall! Whew! I am so glad to be done! As I was carefully making my way through the mall this evening, I thought I must be literally out of my mind to even think of going to the mall tonight; yet I still went in to face the crowds of pushy people just to get a couple more things on my list. Keep in mind I've been praying for patience, but sometimes I know my face didn't register patience, like the time I thought this car might just run over me in her hurry to get out of the parking lot.:) No, I don't believe my face registered true patience.:) Maybe that's why I'm writing this. It all kinda brings me back to reality. Isn't this time of year supposed to be a peaceful time? Aren't we supposed to be at peace with each other, not just as family, but as human beings? (Not that we shouldn't be at peace any other time of the year, but this time of year especially!) I felt very much convicted of this as right after the said incident, I walked through a door that a Salvation Army bell ringer held open for me and wished me, "Merry Christmas!" as I walked through and wished, "Merry Christmas!" back to her. Peace is not about the me factor; it's about how my reactions affect other people. So, here's a challenge; take a step back this week, and just celebrate in your heart this season and the blessed reason for Christmas. Think of how you can help plant a seed of peace in someone else's life. Have a great night!
Friday, December 12, 2008
Apparently, we all do. We all need exercise. As busy wives and moms, though, it's sometimes (for me most of the time) hard to find the time to actually do it. I will tell myself that I'm going to start an actual routine for exercise, but when it comes down to it, something else either comes up, or I make some lame excuse not to do it. Like right now, my lame excuse is that I'm waiting on my husband to finish switching my tae bo tapes to dvd, since our vcr quit. Anyway, exercise is sooooo important. Why? Well....
As a nurse, I used to see all kinds of heart patients come in with so many health problems, and a lot of it stemmed from not eating right and not exercising, and it just "added up" over the years. We used to dread the holidays because after a huge holiday like Thanksgiving, patients would call in with so many problems, due to their eating habits, and there were so many more heart attacks. The doctors could anticipate being very busy. What you think may not hurt you now can actually build up until you have a serious problem on your hands. (Believe me, I'm telling myself all of this right now because I need to hear it) We may think that a heart attack or even cancer or a stroke couldn't affect us, but did you know this.... Incidence — 1,200,000 new and recurrent coronary attacks per year. (National Heart, Lung, and Blood Institute's Atherosclerotic Risk in Communities [ARIC] Study and Cardiovascular Health Study (CHS). About 38 percent of people who experience a coronary attack in a given year die from it. (http://www.americanheart.org/presenter.jhtml?identifier=4591)
Eat right? Many people think that we can just eat right and forget the exercise part, but exercise is so vital to even our everyday health. Exercise can actually give us more energy, it can make a huge difference in our mental and emotional health and moods, it can help to prevent cancer, it can help to build up our immune system, and it can help us get better sleep, as well as reduce our stress levels.
But how do we find the time, and what do we do to exercise? Well, we have to make the time. We have to realize that this is not just for us, but for our families as well, so that we can be around for a long time to still do their dirty laundry and pick up after them, etc. No, I'm just kidding. You're doing this for them so that you can be around for your little girl's wedding, so that you can be there when your son graduates from high school and college and when he has his first child. By exercising, we're not only helping ourselves by all of the aforementioned positive effects, but we are helping our families, and we're setting an example to our children.
To exercise, you can do any number of things. You don't have to run out and join a gym, which can be quite expensive. You can get a video; you can get out for a power walk or even a run, you can ride a bike, you can get involved in either a sport or some kind of activity that you love that involves fitness (for example, my husband and I were doing ballet for a while, and yes, I know, that's hilarious to picture, but it was truly a workout). You can even get outside with your kids and just move! I myself love Tae Bo; it works about every part of my body, but for now, I'm kinda stuck on what to do. I am still going to commit to do something at least 4-5 days per week, though. Whether it's situps, walking, whatever, I will commit to it. If you read this, share a comment and tell us what ideas you have for exercise. Keeping each other accountable is always good too. For now, have a great day!
Thursday, December 11, 2008
This video kinda hit home for me, and I hope it will for you too. Sometimes we guard our hearts so closely that we become so afraid to even reach out to someone, whether it's from past hurts, bad memories from long ago, or whatever the case may be. Hopefully, this can help inspire us to step out and not guard so closely what God has purposed for us to do in this journey we call life.
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
You know, kids are just little people, and by that I mean that they have the same capacity for learning and knowledge and love and respect that we do. The only difference is that they just haven’t fully developed yet and still need our guidance, our love, and a whole lot more. Jacob never ceases to amaze me with things that he says and does. Yesterday, in school, he had a small writing assignment which involved writing a letter to Jesus thanking Him for His help. I thought I would share a picture of what he wrote, and then I’ll translate for you; I think it just speaks for itself today.:)
“Jesus, can you help me always? Jesus, I love you so much. Jesus, I hope I go to heaven. Jesus, you are the greatest Jesus in the whole world. (Only from a child’s mouth) Jesus, I try to do my best. Jesus, I hope you always help me. Jesus, I hope you will help me every day. Jesus, you deserve to do anything you want.(that 'ineefing' with the backwards 'f' tugged at my heartstrings.:)) Jesus, I love you. From Jacob."
When I read this and went over it, I teared up a little. It is a sweet, precious keepsake that will be cherished forever.
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
As busy moms, we are always trying to find ways to stretch our dollars, especially when it comes to the grocery bill. A few weeks ago, I had seen Cristina Ferrare on Oprah, fixing several meals with roasted chicken, and I have since tried three of the recipes. They were all very good and made plenty for our family to have, enough that I thought of sharing them on here. So, enjoy! Oh, and I usually only cook one roasted chicken and then use it for a couple extra meals; it just depends on the size of your family. Also, to stretch your dollars more, wait until these whole chickens go on sale, and buy more than one or two so you have for a later time; last week, Country Mart here had them on for $.69/lb, so I bought about three of them. Enjoy!:)
Recipe created by Cristina Ferrare
This classic roasted chicken is great on its own and in countless other recipes. This recipe calls for two chickens so that you have leftovers!
2 chickens , 4 1/2 to 5 pounds each
A poultry mix of fresh herbs: Rosemary, sage, thyme, parsley and oregano work well.
Marinade for one chicken:
1 cup Dijon mustard
1/2 cup soy sauce
1/2 cup juice from fresh lemon (don't discard lemon rinds)
To make marinade: Place all ingredients in a nonreactive bowl. Whisk with a wire whisk until ingredients are incorporated well—the marinade should have a smooth and creamy consistency.
To make roasted chicken: Preheat oven to 425°.Clean chickens well and pat dry. Place each chicken in its own baking dish.Stuff cavities with lemon rinds and fresh herbs. A poultry mix is fine, usually consisting of rosemary, sage, thyme, parsley and oregano.Pour marinade over chicken. Add cracked pepper and remaining herbs to the top of each chicken.Place an oven thermometer in each chicken and cover with aluminum foil. Place on the lower rack of the oven. Bake for 1 1/2 hours, then remove the aluminum foil. Baste with a basting bulb. Keep basting often, ever 15 minutes until the thermometer reads 180°.
Chicken Pot Pie with Cornbread Crust
Recipe created by Cristina Ferrare
This is a feel-good meal! It's traditional without a catch but very satisfying—not to mention easy and fast.
1 Tbsp. olive oil
1 Tbsp. unsalted butter
1 medium Onion , chopped
1/4 cup flour
2 cups chicken stock
2 cups chopped Roasted Chicken
1/2 cup frozen sweet petite peas
1 potato , diced and boiled
1 1/2 cup chopped, cooked carrots
1/2 tsp. salt
Dash of Tabasco® sauce
3/4 cup white or yellow cornmeal
3/4 cup flour
1 Tbsp. baking powder
1 1/2 Tbsp. sugar
1/2 tsp. salt
3/4 cup milk
1 large egg
2 Tbsp. canola oil
To make filling: Preheat the oven to 400°. Spray a 2-quart casserole with cooking spray. In a large sauce pan, heat olive oil and unsalted butter together. Add onion and sauté until tender, about 4 or 5 minutes. Add in flour until blended. Slowly stir in 2 cups of heated chicken stock, whisking well. Cook mixture over medium heat until thickened and bubbly, about 4 minutes. Stir in chicken, peas, potato, carrots, salt, pepper and Tabasco®. Pour into a 2-quart ovenproof casserole dish coated with cooking spray and spread mixture evenly.
To make crust: In a bowl, stir cornmeal, flour, baking powder, sugar and salt. Stir milk, egg and canola oil until well combined. Stir wet ingredients into dry ingredients. Spoon the batter evenly on the filling. Bake until the top is golden brown, about 22 to 25 minutes.
Recipe created by Cristina Ferrare
These chicken enchiladas make a great family meal—and they're simple to make!
16 ounce bottle or can enchilada sauce
6 low-fat or fat-free tortillas
1 jar salsa
2 cans refried beans
1/4 cup shredded sharp cheddar cheese
1/4 cup shredded sharp Monterey Jack cheese
1/2 cup low-fat sour cream
1/4 cup kalamata olives , pitted
1 jalapeño , chopped and seeded
Heat oven to 400°. Pour the can of enchilada sauce into a pie dish. Dip tortillas in the sauce to soften them.On a cutting board, gently spread refried beans on one side of each tortilla. Add enough diced Roasted Chicken to cover the beans. Sprinkle with cheddar and Monterey Jack cheeses. Add olives, chopped jalapeño and salsa (optional).Roll up the tortillas and place seam-side down in a 9" x 13" baking dish.Blend the sour cream into the remaining enchilada sauce in the pie dish. Pour over enchiladas and sprinkle remaining cheese.Cover and bake for 25-30 minutes until hot and bubbly.
Monday, December 8, 2008
Outside My Window... it is still dark.
I am thinking... I have a lot to do today.
I am thankful for... Dan and Jacob and Jaden and good friends.
From the learning rooms... Jacob will be starting cursive writing this week; he is very excited.
From the kitchen... will be aromas of chicken pot pie with a cornbread crust tonight.
I am wearing... right now, my pajamas and bathrobe.
I am creating... scrapbooked pictures for Christmas presents.
I am going... to Dan’s shop today to decorate and paint his window for Christmas.
I am reading... The Other Side of Love by Gary Chapman and The Lucky One by Nicholas Sparks.
I am hoping... that it snows very soon.
I am hearing... quiet throughout the house with only the train in the distance.
Around the house... today is house blessing day, and of course, the never ending cycle of laundry.
One of my favorite things... is making hot cocoa with Jacob and then enjoying it in front of a Christmas movie.
A Few Plans For The Rest Of The Week: School all week, catching up on writing assignments, skating with the homeschool group on Friday, and hopefully, Jacob can test for his yellow belt this week.
Here is a picture thought I am sharing...
Friday, December 5, 2008
Wow! All I can say is wow!:) Yesterday was such a looooooong day....it can only get better. Really , it wasn't that bad, but I'm still tired thinking about it. Just to give you a little background, I've been really praying for patience lately.......yes, I know, I can hear you all now, "Why are you praying for patience? Do you know what can happen if you pray for patience?" Trust me, do I ever know what can happen! Believe you me, it was a huge step for me to pray for patience. One of my nursing instructors had always said, "Don't pray for patience, or else." So, I lived in fear of praying for "the Big P." I know, right? LOL Actually, now that I look back on yesterday, it's making me laugh, so I guess I'm learning something from it, if only to laugh at myself. I can't say that I handled myself in the most patient of ways while all of this was happening, but I figured out later on that the reason it was all happening was to try to teach me something about patience. Anyway, here's a good laugh for you, my story of yesterday.
We started out with school, and the day seemed to be progressing well; we were done with school by lunch, and we were headed out the door for an afternoon at the grocery store, library, health department, etc. First, as I was going out the door, I knocked over this little decorative item my mom had given me, and of course, it broke. No time, though, had to run. So, we headed to Cabool to take library books back, then to Walmart. Shopping with a one year old sitting in the shopping cart is not easy; those carts just are not kid friendly. He was constantly trying to stand up; that strap did basically nothing to hold him. I finally had everything we needed, much to my relief, and was in the checkout line, the only one that wasn't full of people with totally overloaded grocery carts.:)LOL Then I noticed that the guy in front of me was having trouble getting the debit machine to work, and the cashier was saying how she'd been having trouble with her machine; he finally got it to work somehow, but when I got up there, it decided to quit. Oh, but the best part is that we had already checked and put all my items in bags. So, there I was with no way to pay because the debit machine wouldn't work. Well, I looked down at my cell phone, and I was late for our appointment at the health department. By this time, I was just ready to scream.:)LOL So, I took my cart to customer service so they could hold all my stuff there, and we ran to the car to make it to our appointment; meanwhile, I was just steaming. This isn't the first time that has happened at Walmart, but that's a whole other post. So, we get to our appointment, and because I'm just a smidgin late, I end up waiting behind other people and was there, trying to keep Jaden happy, for about an hour and a half. Then back to Walmart to get our cart and pay at customer service where the debit machine actually worked.:)LOL It didn't end there, but that was the worst of it. It was just a patience working day.
But you know what? I'm going to keep praying for patience, because sooner or later, my prayers are going to be answered. God is working on me, and that right there gives me encouragement to know that my prayers are being heard because He is definitely trying to teach me something about patience. Anyway, my encouragement to you is not to be afraid to pray for "the big P" word; if we all had a bit more of that word in our lives, life would not be half as hard as we make it out to be.:)LOL
Thursday, December 4, 2008
Who Else, But A Mother?
Who first loves and nurtures us and takes care of every need, as she accepts into her life someone new to bathe and feed?
Who brags about accomplishments; first teeth...first sounds...first smile and makes every little thing that's done seem important and worthwhile?
Who's been known to, after dark enter a room and slowly creep to bend and kiss the forehead of a child fast asleep?
Who holds a hand while crossing as she thoughtfully conveys a reminder to her child that he should always "look both ways?"
Who wipes peanut butter off a cheek and crayon off the wall and knots an untied shoelace to avoid a likely fall?
Who watches the swift passing of childhood years that she will mourn, and remembers every small detail about the day that child was born?
Who works the longest hours without a vacation...or a check, but accepts her payment in the form of a hug around her neck?
Who never stops believing even when others are in doubt and defends the fact her child was "safe"when the umpire calls him out!?
Who senses things just aren't right and with the palm of her hand decrees by placing it on her child's brow...the fever's 101 degrees?
Who shares life's disappointments and feels the pain of all the bruises and delights in her child's winnings, but offers solace when he loses?
Who realizes as the years pass by...the further her child will roam and who stays up late with worry when that child isn't home?
Who tries to shield and protect by showing courage...staying strong; trying to set a good example while her heart is breaking all along?
Who acts as a private tutor as the years fall in succession by taking each opportunity to teach life's every lesson?
Who listens with her heart even when her child is grown and understands the feelings that she once herself, had known?
Who saved old cards and letters and kept pictures on the shelves and offered unconditional love so we could learn to love, ourselves?
This poem describes one person; a woman unlike any other, for who could possess that level of love...Who Else, But A Mother?
(c) 1998 Linda Ellis All Rights Reserved
Retrieved from http://www.thelaboroflove.com/prose/poems/whoelse.html.
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
Last night was a really long night, with Jaden waking up so many times, too many times to count. I wonder if he's getting what Jacob has had; it seems like winter is just filled with so many illnesses. Ugh. Anyway, thought I'd just add a recipe that was a huge hit at Thanksgiving and is really easy and inexpensive to make, especially if you use a lot of generic like we do.:) Enjoy!
Creamy Crab and Red Pepper Spread
Prep Time:15 min Total Time:1 hr 15 min
Makes:2-1/4 cups or 18 servings, 2 Tbsp. cheese spread and 5 crackers each
What You Need
2 green onions, thinly sliced, divided
1 tub (8 oz.) PHILADELPHIA 1/3 Less Fat Cream Cheese
1 can (6 oz.) lump crabmeat, drained
1/2 cup KRAFT 2% Milk Shredded Sharp Cheddar Cheese
1/2 cup finely chopped red peppers
1 Tbsp. GREY POUPON Dijon Mustard
RITZ Reduced Fat Crackers
REMOVE 2 Tbsp. of the onions; set aside. Mix remaining onions with all remaining ingredients except crackers; cover.
REFRIGERATE at least 1 hour.
SPRINKLE with reserved onions. Serve with crackers.
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
Christmas is almost here, and it's that time of year again with all the hustle and bustle of the shopping world. There are so many people spending money on all kinds of different things out there, but the key to this season is frugality. Why spend so much money, when you can come up with more meaningful and thoughtful ideas on your own? So, I thought I'd share some of my own gift ideas here, and if you'd like to add to the list, go ahead; the more, the merrier, truly.:)
One thing that I had read about and have kind of tweaked to fit my own style is scrapbooking pictures and framing them. I'm taking old pictures of family (wedding pics of my mom and dad and an old picture of my grandma and grandpa when they were very young) and scrappin them into frames. I'm also taking pics of our boys and making them black and white or antiqueing them and scrappin them also. Now, before you go on about how expensive scrapbooking supplies are or how you just don't know how to scrapbook, I want you to think outside the box. It just takes a little creativity and thought. I don't really know how to scrapbook either; I'm just winging it. As for supplies, there is a dollar shop here where everything is $1, and they are starting to stock all kinds of supplies, all unique and really beautiful actually. I was even able to buy a big scrapbook for $1. Your local craft store will also sometimes put the paper on sale at a really good deal, like 4/$1 or a similar price. Also, get out old greeting cards, buttons, ribbon, etc. You can also get pretty cool frames at the dollar shop or even in the cheapie frame section at Walmart (in the outside aisles).:) Use what you have; you can come up with some pretty unique creations. Here are a couple pictures of what I have so far.
Another thing you might try is homemade candy or cookies, etc. I'm actually making truffles this year, and I got the recipe from the free Kraft Food & Family magazine that comes in my mailbox. Then you can take that candy and put it in a cute little box you get at the dollar shop. You can find the recipe for the truffles at this website: http://www.kraftfoods.com/kf/recipes/simply-sensational-truffles-107529.aspx.
Monday, December 1, 2008
Well, Thanksgiving is over, and our long weekend has given way to a brand new week. Are you ready? Not me!:) I would most certainly love to have just one more day of rest and just being together with Dan and the boys. But time has spoken, and it is Monday! So, I figure I might as well embrace it. See, we can either sit back and complain about all we have to do (which I myself do way too much of, and that is why I'm writing this) and get overwhelmed, or we can just get up and start taking those babysteps to get things accomplished. We can choose to embrace this day and just go with it. So, for today, I'm choosing the latter, to just embrace this day because when you think about it, we are not promised tomorrow, so we have to make this day count.
One last thought to leave you with: yesterday at church, we had a retired missionary couple from Africa there to speak. He was talking about witnessing, and he gave an illustration. Basically, if you were out walking, and you saw a house on fire, and there were people inside, what would you do? Would you stand outside and think of all the things that could go wrong, or would you go up to that house and try to alert them to the danger and try to help them get out? It's the same way with witnessing. We know the danger that people are facing if they are not saved. Are we going to stand back and let our fears keep us from telling them about Jesus, or will we step up and alert them to the danger and help them "get out?" Just something to think about.
Have a great day!
Thursday, November 27, 2008
Happy Thanksgiving, everyone! I hope everyone has a wonderful time with family and friends today. Yesterday was a baking day for me; we are going to my aunt's house this afternoon, and it's always fun when we all get together over there. Anyway, just thought today I would sit down and write down 27 things I'm thankful for on this, the 27th day of November, 2008, Thanksgiving Day.....
1. I'm so thankful to be saved through the blood of Jesus and know that some day, we will have an eternal celebration!
2. I'm so very thankful for my husband, Dan, and my 2 children, Jacob and Jaden; I love them more every day.
3. I'm thankful for my parents and family; I love you all very much.
4. I'm thankful for being able to stay at home right now with my kids and not have to leave them with someone else; I've done that before with Jacob, and it was one of the hardest things to do.
5. I'm thankful to be able to write and to be able to have the freedom to write whatever I believe.
6. I'm so thankful for freedom and for the sacrifice our troops have continually made down through history to keep our freedoms alive for us.
7. I'm thankful for education, for without it where would we be right now?
8. I'm thankful for all my friends and being able to stay in contact with all of you online too.
9. I'm thankful for the computer.
10. I'm thankful for chocolate!:)
11. I'm thankful for Christmas music and the Christmas tree, etc.:)
12. I'm thankful to be in a church that believes in doing as well as teaching.
13. I'm thankful for snow, but I really wish we could get some right now.:)
14. I'm thankful to have a car.
15. I'm so very thankful to have a house and a roof over our heads. I'm sad that our house burnt down, but I can see how God was working through all of that.
16. I'm thankful that I get to talk to Nancy and other friends every day; I'm so glad to have you all in my life.
17. I'm thankful that my kids are healthy and happy kids.
18. I'm thankful that Jacob is loving Tae Kwon Do.
19. I'm thankful for Christmas movies.:)
20. I'm thankful for something even as simple as a dvr, so we can watch favorite shows later when we have time.:)
21. I'm thankful for White Chocolate Raspberry Cheesecake from Olive Garden, the best dessert in the world!:)
22. I'm thankful for being able to get to know people in NYC and so thankful for that city and all the people in it.
23. I'm thankful for being able to homeschool Jacob.
24. I'm thankful for holidays so Dan can stay home and not have to rush off to work.
25. I'm thankful for nursing and all my nursing friends; I miss you all.
26. I'm thankful for books!
27. I'm thankful for music, for without it, life would be pretty bland.
Happy Thanksgiving, everyone! Hope you have a great day!
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
As I write this post, I am contemplating the true meaning of thankfulness and gratitude. We are so, so blessed in this nation, but we have no idea how truly blessed we are. Most of us have beds to sleep in, food on our tables, good health, and a roof over our heads, not to mention the families and friends we love and are loved by. Even with the country and the economy in the shape that they are in, we are still truly blessed. My hope is that this post will reiterate to you how truly blessed you are and will help you to begin to readjust the way you think. Some parts of this post may be hard to hear, and some parts of the video clips may be hard to watch, but please don't turn your heads. The people in these clips are real human beings, created by God, just like you and me. You see, God created us in His image, and no matter where we are at, as human beings, and especially as children of God, we have a responsibility for each other that is so vital. So, please don't turn your heads. Yes, these things are so hard to think about, and it may cut you to the core, but we cannot and should not stop thinking and doing all we can just because it hurts. After all, Christ did not come down off of that cross, even though He had the power to do so; He stayed there and endured the pain and affliction because He loved us. Now, it's time for us to show Him how truly grateful we are. What will you do?
"At times our own light goes out and is rekindled by a spark from another person.Each of us has cause to think with deep gratitude of those who have lighted the flame within us." -Albert Schweitzer
“For each new morning with its light,For rest and shelter of the night,For health and food, for love and friends,For everything Thy goodness sends.”-Ralph Waldo Emerson
“Silent gratitude isn't much use to anyone.” -G.B. Stern
"No one is as capable of gratitude as one who has emerged from the kingdom of night." -Elie Wiesel
These first two videos remind me of how truly blessed I am to be born where I was and to have the parents that I had. It also makes me want to hug my children. As a nurse, the AIDS crisis is so real to me, and anything we can do to ease the suffering is sorely needed. Children are also being forced every day into the life of a rebel soldier. Where is our gratitude to God when we sit back and turn our heads, only to look away?
This next video, well, it just makes the tears flow, but to any of our troops out there, THANK YOU for everything you sacrifice and give for our freedom! And thank you to the families of the troops for all of the sacrifices you have made. When I think of a soldier over there fighting, as a wife and mother, I also think of their family back home. What are they feeling right now and going through? So, thank you. I am sorry for all of the times I have taken this freedom for granted. You are true heroes!
As for this last video, I had actually seen it on Oprah a couple weeks ago, and it truly touched my heart. Grab the tissues, if you haven't already because you will need them, but please don't let the sadness let stop you from watching this video. Be grateful for your kids and the many blessings they have brought into your life. Give them hugs, and tell them you love them.
So, now it's your turn. Are you truly grateful, or are you just skating through life, taking everything you have been given for granted? What will you do?
It's Tuesday, and there are only 2 more days until Thanksgiving!:) I thought in the spirit of the holiday, I would start a 3 part Thanksgiving Day special edition of HeartPrints. Today, I found something that should give you a good laugh. We can all use a good laugh now and then. So, click on the links below, sit back, and let the laughing begin. Oh, and have a wonderful Tuesday!
Monday, November 24, 2008
Sometimes we need a little shove to get going on Mondays; I know I do. It's the beginning of a whole new week, and an exciting week at that with Thanksgiving and all. If you're feeling overwhelmed this Monday morning with everything there is to do after the long, messy weekend, then just sit back, grab a coffee (or whatever you like), and take a few minutes to refresh yourself before getting started. Read a devotional, or even connect with other women/mothers just like yourself through their blogs. Just take a few minutes for you before you start. Then make a list of what needs done TODAY; focus on today. Be sure that you take those babysteps (aka: http://flylady.net/) to get everything done, or you will feel very overwhelmed. Put on some good music to get you moving. Just remember, you are not alone; there is probably another mother just down the road who feels the exact same way you do. So, don't go crazy Rambo Mom trying to get everything done at once; just take it one step at a time, and as you start marking your to do list off, you'll be amazed at how good it will feel knowing that you're accomplishing what you set out to do, only in a more relaxed way. Have a great day!:)
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
Wow! Time flies, doesn't it? Today marks 31 years for me. I can't believe I'm already 31! Everyone says how as we get older, we women take it harder every year. Even Dan doesn't seem to believe that I am happy about this. But in all honesty, the last year of my life has been so enlightening for me, and I couldn't be happier to be in my 30's. I feel like I'm finally getting to know myself and really starting to buckle down and just enjoy the ride. Yeah, life gets stressful, and sometimes I have the fleeting thought that with current life expectancies, I am almost halfway there. But it doesn't bother me like I thought it would. It's actually exciting to me to turn a year older because who knows what this new year will bring? What new leaf or "leaves" will we turn over this year? So, yeah, I can't believe 31 is already here, but it's a new year and a fresh start with something new to learn not just about our world, but about myself. They say that every year and every gray hair you add grants you more wisdom. So, today, I pray that I can be granted that wisdom as well. After all, what else are gray hairs good for?:) Now, on to getting through this day so I can have a taste of that raspberry cheesecake from Olive Garden tonight!:)
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
As I sit here this morning, I'm thinking about how our day will go and what we need to accomplish today before we lay our heads down on our pillows again tonight. With school and household chores, it can seem overwhelming at times, but I wouldn't trade a second of it. I've just been feeling so blessed to be able to be at home with my kids. Today started a new sort of schedule for me; getting out of bed at 5:30 wasn't easy; that extra hour of sleep until 6:30 every day has spoiled me, but if I get up earlier, so much can be accomplished just in that first hour. Half of my story for my assignment is done, and here I sit posting. Our minds can just race with everything that needs done, but for today, just enjoy your day, no matter where you are at or what you are doing. Stop and actually look around at either the fall leaves still dropping from the trees one by one or at the snowflakes coming down on your nose, depending where you are at.:) Next week is Thanksgiving, and it's exciting to know that we'll get together with family and have lots of good things to eat. But for now, enjoy this moment, because this moment, you will never get back; it will be gone for eternity. In this moment, either you can do something that will count for that eternity, or you can waste it and let it just slip into eternal nothingness. So, live in this moment, and enjoy it!
Here is something I read last night that really is very powerful; I know not everyone homeschools, but for us mothers, education is what we do when you think about it. No matter if you homeschool or not, we are in the business of educating and training up our children, so here's a very powerful quote:
Education is not filling a pail, but the lighting of a fire. ~William Butler Yeats
Have a wonderful, enjoyable day!
Friday, November 14, 2008
Here is a thought for today. I'm reading Fresh Faith by Pastor Jim Cymbala, and he was talking about David's prayer in Psalms 51 today. But there are 3 points to this prayer that we can really apply to our own lives.
"1. 'Create in me a pure heart.' He has already asked for cleansing. Now he is going deeper. He wants God to start all over, to create a brand-new heart that is pure to the core. He wants to see everything in his world with pure eyes, to hear with holy ears, and to act with godly responses.
2. 'Renew a Steadfast Spirit Within Me.' What David is asking God for is a work of grace within him that will keep him from the kind of rise-and-fall, mountain-and-valley pattern that characterizes far too many of our lives....with God, all things are possible....We must not be content just to hope, or to lament our weak spiritual condition. Instead, we must approach the throne of grace with a bold confidence that what God promised, he will do....Let us ask him for this steadfast spirit that will hold us through the changing situations of life.
3. 'Grant Me a Willing Spirit, To Sustain Me.' Beyond being steadfast, he wants to be willing to do whatever God asks....David has recognized that his heart can betray him. His will can consent to the appeals of the world and the flesh, so he cries out for God to give him a willing spirit. This again flies in the face of much of today's Christianity, which bites its lip and tries harder to do what only the Spirit of God can accomplish. In fact, God had to make us willing."
This last part is what really got me. So many times, I fail in my Christian walk, but I think I just try too hard and don't let God do His perfect work in me. I try to do everything myself, and that just isn't gonna work. I have one thing that I really struggle with daily, and that is letting certain words slip out of my mouth that shouldn't. I hope I don't lose any followers by admitting this, but in order to be a living testimony, I also need to be real, and I hope that maybe this will help some of my readers to become more real also. After all, nobody is perfect. It's something that I think I've tried on my own to stop, but my problem is that I'm not letting God do the purifying work in me; I'm just trying too hard. Instead, I need to let it go, surrender it, and let Him work. It's going to be a daily surrender, but if I believe, then all things are possible with God. Just a tidbit for this rainy Friday!
P.s. Would love any feedback on anything that you struggle with too. I firmly believe that in order to be effective, we need to get REAL and honest!!!! We can also encourage each other in knowing that we are not alone in our daily struggles.
Thursday, November 13, 2008
I've decided that it's time for a change. It's time that I put more meaning behind this blog. My dream is to just be a Christian voice for other women out there and connect with others of a like mind and a like faith. I just want God to use me. So, I'm giving my blog a makeover. There are so many ideas running through my head on topics to discuss on here and different things I can do. So, just to let you know that the new look is giving way to a whole new blog!:) I'm so excited and can't wait to see where this leads. Stay tuned because there will be more to come......:)
Sunday, November 2, 2008
This week was kind of a rough week; it started out great, and we were accomplishing lots of things, including getting a lot done with school. Wednesday night, we were sitting around the supper table, when the phone rang. It was my mom, and she had some really bad news. My neighbor, who I had grown up with and spent so many of my days with, had been killed that day. He was taking his usual nap in the basement, and somehow his shotgun that was in the corner, got knocked over, and it shot him through the heart and killed him instantly as he was laying there sleeping. He never knew what hit him, which we can be thankful for, and he was a Christian. The first thought I had was that I hadn't gone to see him; he had asked my dad to tell me to come see him, and I hadn't done it. His name was Leonard, and he was like a grandpa to me. His wife, Cleo, is still living, and my heart just breaks for her. It was a huge shock, and it brought many tears. I just kept thinking how I would never feel that hug around my neck again from him. I kept thinking about his family that he left behind. I remember so many summer days spent at their house, just hanging out. Leonard was a beautiful, wonderful person. We went to the viewing, and as I went up to look at his body, it just washed over me how much he was going to be missed. The funeral the next day, though, was thought provoking for me. The pastor talked about how if we were saved, we would see Leonard again. And it hit me that Leonard is in Heaven with my own grandma and grandpa. He is rejoicing with them. When I die, he is going to greet me at the gates with that old, familiar, loving hug around my neck that he gave me every time we saw each other. And we'll never have to part. Yes, there are so many regrets; I just wish that I would have taken the time out of my day to just go and see them. Maybe it takes these things to wake us up, though, to what is really important in life. Maybe it takes losing someone you really love and care about to just wake up and smell the roses as they say. Leonard was 84 years old, and as the pastor at the funeral said, "If only there were more Leonards in the world, the world would be a much better place." That is so true; I can only hope my life has as much meaning as his life did to so many people who mourn his loss, but rejoice that someday we will see him again.
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Today has just been one of those days; I can't describe how I woke up feeling exactly. It was that irritable, grouchy, sad, weird feeling. As mothers, sometimes, at least I myself, find that most of my days are filled with joy and new discoveries and just wonderful memories. Don't get me wrong; it's not easy; it's probably the hardest job I've ever done. Then there are those days every once in a great while that seem to sneak in and just clobber you as soon as you wake up from that sound sleep. That day every once in a while that makes you want to pull all your hair out, but you can't quite put your finger on the reason why. That's how today has been. I love my kids dearly, but lately, Jaden's been in some sort of funk where he just wants so much attention and wants to bawl and bawl while Jacob and I are trying to work on school. Anyway, I say this not to complain; it helps to write it out, but I say this because all day, I've been wondering why I'm feeling this way. It feels like the world is just falling in on me, and I just want to "do battle" with anything that gets in my way.:)LOLOL (Be honest, you know you've been there too!) I think it just boils down to not putting all my fears, problems, emotions, just everything into God's hands and leaving it there. Instead, I try to think of solutions myself. I listen to other people's problems, and I internalize them, and it's like I just add it to the "burden backpack" on my back. Right now, a very dear college friend of mine is in the midst of losing her father as we speak; they are due to remove the life support today, and it's just heartbreaking. And as much as I want to cry over it, I need to leave it in God's hands. I need to trust that God has a reason, and He is working through all of this. Through the midst of Dan's gram's battle with cancer, there is not much I can do here, and it's a very helpless feeling. But God knows, and He can do something, but I have to let Him. Being patient and waiting are not my strong suits, but God can make a way, no matter the time it may take. Really, these problems put my little "freakish" day into much perspective, when I think about it. The insignificance of a bad day every once in a while compared to what someone else may be going through is just so powerful to think on. I feel like I'm just rambling, but I guess what I'm trying to say is that no matter those days where you feel like the world is ending; pay no attention to them. God is still working, no matter how we feel, and He is in control. We just have to let Him be in control and let go of the steering wheel. At least in my life, that's how it rolls.:)